Self-Discipline

I am the least self-disciplined person I know.  I don't want to do things just because I don't want to do them.  I look for reasons excuses for every little thing that I know is required for me to do as a Christian, wife, mother, homeschooler.  And it just makes me sooooo mad!  Because when I do the things that I need to be doing it feels so good to have them done.

All that to say...I have been truly convicted to become more disciplined.  It is apparent that I need it in everything I do.  How can I expect my girls to do what they're supposed to do with school...if I can't even get it together to prepare things?  How am I to expect them to manage their time...when I don't?  How am I to expect them to be obedient to the Word...when I myself don't spend time in it everyday, seeking God's will for me and my family?

“God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline” 2 Timothy 1:7

So, that's why I long for it?!?  Of course!  His spirit is in me, so the spirit of self-discipline is there!  But, I have to give myself over for it to come through.  

I hate to brush my teeth...hate it.  But it has to be done.  I'm probably on the road to dentures in a few years, but I can take care of them while I have them...right?  I don't want to wash my face...because it's a pain to have to do that every night.  That was my first step in self-discipline.  A nightly routine of brushing my teeth, and skincare.  I didn't like it, and still don't most nights...honestly, I prayed that God wouldn't allow me to sleep until these things were done.  

So today, even though I slept late, and still had to vacuum two rooms, and clean the kitchen in less than 30 min.  I began to sing "This is the day the Lord has made" it got my focus back on Him, and as soon as I could, I sat down with my Bible, and notebook and began to pray "Lord, I know this isn't the ideal situation for me to seek You, be in Your Word, and pray...I'm going to do it...or else it will have to wait until tomorrow, and then tomorrow there will be something else...and there's always another tomorrow."

I'm going to do my best to stop looking to others for what I want God to tell me and just seek him...no matter if there are kids screaming, music playing, toys clanking...God will still meet me there in those places...and I have to remember that.